Haven’t we all used the phrase “I Give Up!” at one time or another? I know I have and under many different circumstances. I’ve used it when I can’t find something I put away in that “perfect spot” so I would be sure and know where to find it. LOL. I’ve also used it when I’m frustrated with a situation or some body when I don’t know what else to do or say.
What I’ve found out was I never really used it when it came to hearing from God and being obedient. What I mean is I like to be in control, at least in some way, of almost every situation. It makes me feel safer and feeds that part of me that was taught to be independent and do things on my own.
As I’ve shared before I’ve found out a lot of things about myself as God has been working on me, both good and not so good. Regardless of which I’ve had to be real with myself and God and be willing to either embrace the good or admit the not so good. With the not so good areas I then had to be willing to continue to work with God toward resolving the issue.
What I have discovered, however, is that no matter how much I said Yes to God I never completely gave up my control over the area I was supposed to be working on. Yes, I have had some major breakthroughs and major revelations in some areas but I think God has probably had to do a lot of pulling and tugging on me to move forward when my need to be in control said “no, it’s not time yet”, or “maybe we need to test this a little more”.
My need to stay in control of part of the process prevented me from having absolute faith that God would take me where I needed to be. God wants only the best for us and he desires to bless us in all that we do if we walk in faith. In this world there’s a prevailing theme that you must do everything yourself because no one is going to do it for you; believe in yourself. While there’s nothing wrong with having an independent spirit God wants us to rely on, trust in, and have faith in Him.
So what does all this mean? It means that I’ve had to learn to say I Give Up when dealing with a situation, person, or issue and give it all to God. To admit that He needs to be in control and I must be willing to be open to whatever He leads me to do. Sometimes he leads me to confront the issue (ouch!), learn the whys and hows of the situation, and deal with it. Sometimes he leads me to do nothing, at least nothing apparent, for a period of time while he works on me, grows me through it, and I come out on the other side with new revelations about myself and who I am as God’s creation.
This has been one of the hardest things to do, saying I Give Up to God. Oh, I know I’ve said it before when dealing with something that was definitely beyond me but I was truly only giving it lip service. I said it but then took everything right back and tried to do it all myself. I think I’ve finally realized that doing anything under my own power and control just really doesn’t work when I don’t involve God in the process and let Him do the guiding. Looking back I realize just how frustrated I got when things didn’t work out like I thought they should. But I realize now that God closed some necessary doors during those times to things that would not have been right for me. I thank Him for that now even though I certainly didn’t see it at the time.
So, I’m still an independent type person and I like to have some control in a situation. That hasn’t changed. What has changed is my thinking. I am doing my best to put God first with everything I do, striving to be aware of His guiding hand and being open to whatever He wants me to do.
Jeremiah 29:11 – 13 says – “For I know the plans I have for you, declares the Lord, plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you a hope and a future. Then you will call on me and come and pray to me, and I will listen to you. You will seek me and find me when you seek me with all your heart.”
God knows my heart and knows I’m not perfect and He loves me anyway!!