Proverbs 3: 5 – 6 Trust in the Lord with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding; in all your ways acknowledge him, and he will make your paths straight.
The verse above has always been one of my favorites and I memorized it a long time ago. However, I’ve realized as of late that I’ve struggled with one of the words in it. That word is Trust.
The trust I’m talking about is the absolute trust in God to take care of everything in my life. To commit everything to Him and leave it with him and not pick it back up and try to do it on my own. Don’t get me wrong I do love God and I do trust him but what I’ve failed to do is give him the credit that He can do anything he chooses without my help.
Sounds simple doesn’t it. Yet its been hard for me to do. If you’ve read some of my other posts you’ve undoubtedly read about my upbringing with a mother who molded me into who she wanted me to be, instilling in me the need to be perfect and“not rock the boat” or draw attention to yourself. I was also brought up to be independent and to solve my own problems, again because admitting that you have any kind of problem you can’t solve means you aren’t perfect and would draw attention.
So, I’ve learned that is the reason that I hadn’t put my absolute trust in God that he can take care of any situation. Oh sure, I prayed for a problem I have or a need and ask God for his will to be done but when things didn’t happen when I thought I should, then it was “me, myself, and I’ to the rescue to see if I couldn’t hurry things along. Well guess what, things usually didn’t turn out how I envisioned them if anything happened at all. Which, of course, left me frustrated. I don’t recall ever being truly mad at God when this happened but it never occurred to me I might just want to let God take a crack at the issue or need and sit back and see what happened.
What I have learned and continue to learn is that I need to pray about an issue, problem, or whatever is on my heart and then trust God to do what needs to be done. In His time. Which, of course, is not necessarily in my desired time frame. I am learning to be more patient. Once I have submitted my need to Him I don’t need to keep repeating it over and over. I’m sure he heard me the first time.
I am also learning to listen for God as well. There may be something He is asking me to do or to learn during this process. The world view of “doing it myself” if I want something done wants to creep in – I also may need to pray for more patience during the process of waiting or for peace. I’ve also learned that trusting God means that he may work through other people and if I trust God I need to trust others that may be speaking God-inspired wisdom into my life.
God knows I love him and I am trusting Him. Romans 8:28 says “ And we know that in all things God works for the good of those who love him, who have been called according to his purpose”.