I’m Not Selfish, Am I?

‘ve shared before about my journey to a healthier me beginning in  July 2012.  I’m committed to that journey for the rest of my life and I’m doing really well and I feel great.

However, I want to share an experience I had a few weeks ago that God used as a reminder.  I had been checking my blood sugar twice a week and its doing great. Well, that particular Saturday morning when I checked my blood sugar it was higher than usual (150).  This number isn’t alarmingly high but was higher than I was used to seeing and higher than usual readings can happen for a number of reasons.  I’ll be honest though, it freaked me out.

My pulse started racing and I’m sure my blood pressure went up.  My mind started going over all of the possible things I could have done wrong to cause the spike in my blood sugar.  My husband reassured me that I was still eating right and exercising and it could have been a combination of many different things.

Once I was able to rein in some of the emotions that were running rampant in my head I did see the wisdom in what my husband had said as well as what I knew to be true.  I started to calm down.  It was during this time that I clearly heard one word from God: pride.

I thought really, pride? Me? I’ve never thought of myself as being prideful, boastful, or selfish.  I started mediating on pride and it didn’t take long for me to have clarity on what God was trying to tell me.  I had been forgetting lately to give God the praise, honor, and glory for the healthier me that I have become.  I had been developing a bit of pride and selfishness in my way of thinking about how healthy I was becoming.  I know without a shadow of a doubt that I didn’t/couldn’t do this all on my own.  God used the infection in my foot and the diabetes diagnosis as a wake up call.  He gave me the courage, determination, and resolve to be a healthier, new improved me regardless of any obstacles I would face.

I’m not saying that God caused the higher than usual blood sugar reading but He sure did use it as a learning experience.  I was saddened when I realized what I had been forgetting to do and should do each and every day especially with regards to my health.  I’ve asked God to renew in me my commitment to being healthy; to putting the right foods in my body; to exercising; to feeling great.  I’ve actually asked that he keep me just a little “freaked out” so I am ever aware of how precious my health is and how I don’t ever want to go back to being unhealthy again.

To God be the Glory for my health and every aspect of my life.

Proverbs 16:18 “Pride goes before destruction, a haughty spirit before a fall.”

JAMES 4:8

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2 thoughts on “I’m Not Selfish, Am I?

  1. Since the beginning of this journey to a new, healthier you I have heard you give praise to God for all that has happened- the good and not so good! I think it is good for you to be proud of your accomplishments because with God’s help, you have done the work! Some may have been granted God’s help but they might have chosen to not do the work. I know that all that we are and all that we have comes from God, none the less, I am proud of you! Love, MaryKate ❤

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