I’ve been reflecting a lot over the past week. As stated in my prior post (One Year Ago Today) I went into the hospital on 6/28/12 for a foot infection and wound up with surgery and a diagnosis of diabetes
I was in the hospital for a week. And today, July 4th, one year ago, I got to go home. A friend contacted me that morning to see how I was doing and during the conversation asked if I was going to be getting my own independence day. I said I hoped to as all signs pointed towards it.
Well, I’ve thought a lot about that since that day and I guess in a manner of speaking I did receive my own independence day, and not just from the hospital. I got to go home that evening, not totally healed in my foot, but well on my way.
I’ve always been an independent sort of person which can be good or bad depending on the situation. However, this independence is leading me on a journey away from the “old” self towards a “new” self.
My newer self is much healthier physically with regards to my weight, fitness, and eating habits. However, I know God used this experience to start my journey in earnest toward the me that He created that I’ve never tapped into.
Jeremiah 29:11 has always been a verse that I have loved. I’ve read it many times but honestly don’t think it has ever resonated more with me than during the journey I started a year ago. This scripture and many others are more alive to me than ever before. More and more I can say that I truly believe God’s Word is for me, yes me. Not just a little for me and more for everyone else.
Revelation 21:5 speaks of making all things new. That is how I have felt and am feeling during this process. I’m learning new things about myself and also how to deal with areas that God reveals that aren’t so pretty.
I’m also rejoicing because I’m discovering a happier, freer, more joyful person inside of me. It’s definitely a process and its ongoing. There are a lot of layers to work through, some put there by my own doing and others a result of my upbringing. I know I’ll never stop growing spiritually, nor do I want to. I want to free myself from anything and everything that may be between me and God so He can use me.
I want to be used mightily for God! That’s my hearts desire, that’s what I’ve come to realize over this last year more and more. I feel like I’ve wasted a lot of years not being who I was supposed to be and I don’t want to waste another minute.
To quote Joyce Meyer – “I may not be where I need to be but I thank God I am not where I used to be.”
I’m on my way!